11 more days

hay, wow it has been a while... school has given me so much work i had no time to blog :(
but yes as you see from my title i only have 11 more days left of school!
...of highschool! forever!
you have no idea how excited i am... aha well maybe you do :p
yeaah so i have 3 essays due in school in the next 11 days and im kind of stressing so if i dont blog any time soon you will know .... im sorry :(

addicted?

i actually think i am addicted to blogging! i find it so much fun and when i am bored or i am having a problem i always come online and write about it. i have to blog atleast once a day if that.. ha i am one of those people who have a big mouth i guess you can call it and i always end up saying to much and never to little. i give out so much information and im pretty sure thats a bad thing?
i once went to this presentation at my school about this guy who was addicted to a bunch of drugs and he said that alot of people have adictive personalities. that really made me think and open my eyes..last year i was almost addicted to alcohol your probably wondering why i said almost right? well i use to drink when things didnt go my way, always by myself i mean i would go out to parties. then i started drinking on school nights and all the time when me and my boyfriend got into a fight. eventually i started to crave alcohol and even when i didnt have a problem and nothing was bothering me i would still drink just to satisfy the craving.. but then my boyfriend kinda found out i guess you could say and he started talking to me and helping me get back on the right track. im so glad i have him and im so glad he cares enough about me to help me. now i know if i have a problem or whatever i can always talk to him about it instead of turning to alcohol. :)
haha how is that for alot of information eh?
talk to you sooon bloggers and keep reading my blogs !!

vlog?

HELLLLOOOOOOOO ALL YOU BLOGGERS!
so tonight i went over to my friend K's house and we made dinner and thouuught "we should totally make a video blog!"
like seriously how much would that be? haha.. soo we decided to make it on just about anythinnng... we dont really have a name for it yet but when we get it i will tell you and you can watch us on Youtube.
it will be very interesting aha i can telll you that much!!
im actually like excited? haha.
well ta, ta for now :)

City Bus

so today i had 2 job interviews and i decided to take the city bus to the mall. the bus trip there was okay, but on the way back it was snowing and i didnt bring a coat and when i got off the bus at my designated spot the bus driver nearly ran me over! she went off like honking her horn and shit at me and i was so embarrassed... not to mention there was a cute guy on the bus. soo as you can tell it was not a good experience. like im pretty sure i saw her wave her hand at me telling me i could go... but nooo she had to start driving and nearly kill me!!
drivers these daaays!
well im out for now. talk to you in the future
Manda :)

B- one

so today i decided to miss school because my stupid wisdom teeth are coming in and hurts sooo much !
also i got awakened by my boyfriend texting me and telling me "we need to talk" i honestly hate that line so much! so i got up and called him and he started freaking on me because of a joke me and my 2 friends were talking about on Facebook. i was so annoyed that he was creeping my profile and i was mad that he was accusing me of cheating!
like seriously? after 9 months of telling you i would never cheat on you, you decide to accuse me of cheating? wow
i was soo mad and we tried to work it out ... it hasnt been going good. he threatened to break up with me if i didnt get one of my friends to tell him it was a joke? like c'mon then he decides that i owe him because of that.. and i was like no i actually dont it was a joke and you wouldnt feel like this if you trusted me and didnt be such a creep.
so then he decided to tell me i didnt care about him.. btw he lives 5 hours away.
so i was like honestly if i didnt trust you wuld i have given up alcohol for you? if i didnt care would i give up going to see my best friends for you? if i didnt care would i have taken you back all these times? if i didnt care would i honestly lie to you and tell you i didnt love you? and iif i didnt care would i seriously not have sex with anyone for 9 months? ...prettty sure i care about you B.
he had nothing to say if your wondering aha.
but yeaah it justs pisses me of sometimes when he accuses me of sometthings!!
liike holy shit trust me!
if your in a relationship have you ever felt like this? if so please tell me how you solved it . im so fed up. i honestly have no idea what to do anymore.
i still love him but i hate gettting into meaningless arguements with him.. you know?
welll thats all for know bloggers :)
have a good one.

haaaayo!

heeey whats up.?
so i had a bursary presentation today at school and i just realized now that i am so excited for post-secondary school next year! like wow only 9 weeks left of high school? that is insanee!
i am soo happy and i cant wait to do soo many things this summer.
so as none of you know lol i use to sing. i use to sing in my church youth group and i was really good at it and got to sing every wednesday night infront of big groups. that was 2 years ago. now that i am in a different city, with different people things change. i have not sang in about 2 years... something just told me i didnt want to do it anymore, you know?
anyways so after schoool today i came home and decided i wanted to sing.. so i turned on my tv and sang karokee for like 2 hours and... i totally suckked. it was so depressing knowing i couldnt sing anymore.. i mean i sang my whole life, my and my poppa would sing together before he died.. it was "our thing" you know? anyways i took singing lessons and wanted to be discovered so bad. i sand every chance i got. but i dont know what happened i just stopped and it kinda dissapoints me now because why the heck did i stop doing what i love? ... i honestly have no idea hah.
anyways so yes going on with my story i started singing today any holly my voice S U C K S!!!!
liiike what did i do to deserve this?
was it not practising?
liike i have no ideaa.. and i wonder how my voice would be today if i still practised and went on to pursue singing as a career?
do you think i would be any good as it?
honestly, i sometimes wish i could be discovered with my singing and i want to get back into it again but i live in Canada like where the heck am i going to get discovered riight?
im soo right.
my dreaaam.. secretly is i want to record a song with lil wayne... he is my idol and i looove his voice like omg right?
wow i never new i could right so muchhh haha i LOVE BLOGGING!!!
wow.
so yes back to the singing thing... last night i was watching some youtube videos of singers and i thought to myself most of them play an instrument? aha
i use to play piano but i sucked at it and hated it haha
hmm someone said i would be really goopd at the drums tho because my feet move alot when im sitting or standing or presenting... thats embarrasing haha.
so yes there is this one girl on youtube and she is really good and didnt justin bieber get discovered off of youtube??
WOW
like maybe i should start video blogging?? haha
and sing in them?
in all honesty tho i think becoming a singer, making albums, doing what i love to do and having the best fan in the world would be amazing...
so yeaah thats pretty much all i have to say in this blog aha.
i wonder if anyone actually reads them? haha
oh welll i love writing anyways so who caress!!
anywayys peace. and ill talk to you tomrorrow :)

i just finished watching Sex and the City.. one of my favourite movies and as embarrassing as this sounds i want to be like Carrie Bradshaw alot. she is beautiful, she has a good fashion sense, and has 3 amazing best friends !
i love shopping and i could shop all day if i had the money haha. shopping helps me calm down when im upset and i think alot while shopping :)